Deafening Silence

delhi..survived..

walang katapusan.....

I was called to attend a capacity building on international economic integration issues….in

New Delhi India..again to india sighhh…and  the bad thing is that it’s a month long, previously to Mumbai for 3 weeks…but whatever la.. good for my career since I just moved to a new portofolio doing international cooperation…shud b useful the knowledge gained.. …I only got to know the venue of my accommodation 2 days before my departure…its Janpath Hotel…being so curious about the accommodation I surfed the net to find some info on the hotel…It says that it’s a 4 star hotel but reviews from tourists that stayed in the hotel said that it doesn’t deserve 4 star, only 1 star…they even put up some photos to prove how bad the hotel condition is…so my imagination is that Janpath hotel is like rumah tumpangan Ah Kiong…well, just accept whatever given to you with no question, hoping for some blessing in disguise…

So I departed and arrived in Indhira Ghandi Int Airport, Delhi local time 1000pm…the organiser informed me earlier that I will be received n transport me the hotel…unfortunately no signage of my name as I walk out the airport… after some calling, somebody came and brought me to the hotel…when I arrived, I almost confirmed myself that it is rumah tumpangan ah kiong by looking at the lobby, reception, lifts and etc… but as I walked to the room, looks nice though… and when I opened the door, WOW! This is a 4 star hotel… big flat screen TV, nice furniture, nice bed and guess what? They even provide electronic weighing machine huhuhuuh…..i just slept that night coz tired of travelling, but the bed was horrible…had some itchiness…had rashes all over and that time I was thinking that im gonna live there for a month! Damn…

So the class started, we had participants from ASEAN mostly..after 2 days of lectures, they sent us off for study tour to Agra & Jaipur….visited Taj Mahal and other prominent monuments… didn’t expect to have a free vacation though hahaha…it was purely a holiday tour for us…this is the blessing in disguise as I mentioned before haha…..hotel in Agra was great, but in Jaipur was an old hotel…looks abit spooky…and the bed also was very itchy… putting myself in a hot tub was the best thing at that time… brushing teeth feels sucks…water is salty…sometimes it taste like having 100 plus in my mouth…when u have a shower, u will feel like u just got your self out from the sea…..so for those who would like to make a soup, u dun have to add salt at all

I had nothing to do in bus during the trip..so I mischievously taking photos of this particular Thailand gentlemen whom we called Maharaja Natawat… he loves to dig his nose… so I took candid photos of him digging his nose, sleeping with mouth wide opened….the plan is that I will email the photos to all after the programme ends hahahah….just for some kind of jokes with no offence…

When we got back to Delhi, other participants from Estonia, Russia, Oman, Ghana, Belarus, Etopia, Mauritius, Sri Lanka, Uzbekistan joined us… got some pretty chicaz finally hahhaha…after quiet sometimes,  we began to be comfortable with each other and enjoy the remaining time of the programme…. This natawat guy took my picture sleeping during a show as if I didn’t know…he thought he is clever enough but he didn’t know that I have almost 20 pics of him doing funny things…I just kept quite and wait till the right time haha…the only one who knows my agenda was my partner in crime, Pak Carlos from Indonesia….

Everything will come to an end, so does this wonderful event. One of the most interesting event happened in my life…the adventure of eating puree n curry everyday for a month during breakfast which earned me 2 kilos!, salty taste water, itchy bed, n bla bla….the best thing is the knowledge earned and meeting people from the other part of this world and friendship….

oh, not to forget, every 10 meters I walked in the shopping mall, the chicks were hot and spicy that pleasured our eyes with no regrets after a mistake of 28 stops ride on a train… seriously, hot & spicy chicks which hardly found in Malaysia…right Mr. Carlos? You want a Kashmiri too? or maybe Punjab? Malaysian girls are too complicated and headache.. not sure bout Indo girls…so perhaps Kashmiri a good choice…hahahah

At dawn they arrived.. till before the sunrise…Lukut challenge

I received few comments from some nice ppl who enjoy reading my crap blog and asked me to write more… after all I’ve not been scribbling quite sometime n got no idea.. so here u go! Anyway thanks for the compliments n support…

 

This crap blog attributes to one of my passions…fishing!! Some call us gila ke cuti raya gi fishing? Ewwww who cares? Raya dah abis…kalau ada open house ajak je la wa datang punya hahaha..

So, we had a fishing trip and spent a night at kelong lukut on 18^th Oct to 19^th …it has been so long I have not been fishing due to time constraint and no “kaki”.. ..just the 3 of us…Ive not been fishing with my fishing cum bandmate Shamsir hahahha….so its good to see him again at the battlefield…

We started to ‘battle’ against the fish around

7pm

…not a chaos battlefield though…no sign of enemy coming in and it started to bore us…. 10pm the weather was quite cold..i didn’t bring my jacket…so I started to open my sleeping bag….damn! I need to pee…it was dark…toilet has got no light…ahhh this make me feel more loving to my stupid old Nokia 3200 cz it has got a mini torchlight!! I was thinking of throwing it into the sea but cancel it off due to its kindness to me….after checking the bait, back to my sleeping back….but then we were hungry…no food…lucky enough shamsir bought some mamee snack……how we wish that McD delivery can deliver to the middle of the sea… …woke up at 12am, 2am…still no sign of enemy intruding our territory….its either they are still enjoying attending hari raya open house and still full to bite the bait or our bait is not impressive enough…we have got everything just name it….shrimp, ikan kembung, sotong santan (shamsir’s recipe), and pumpun (my favorite bait)… so I stay put in my sleeping bag to catch some dream….dream to catch a marlin haha..

5.10 am my Cannibal Corpse alarm tone rang to battle again…still no sign yet…change the bait and cast again….oops! daily routine in every morning, ouch it has come to the peak… I need to ‘pret-pret’… quickly grab a bucket of water and my Nokia torch phone and there u go right into the sea babeh just like a bomb drop hahahah….lega siottttttttt……but during my prêt-pret an idea came to change the strategy….so after subuh prayer I changed the mata kail to a smaller one bcz each time we checked the bait, it was eaten by the small fishes…and the strategy worked!!! I got a palm size fish right after changing the strategy about 7am… but that was the only fish I got till 930 am hahahaha….then we packed our things and the boat came to fetch us at 1030am….

The moment we arrived at the jetty, the rain started to pour, lucky us! ….Then we had a nasi lemak ayam goreng and we ate like a hungry horse…we are not satisfied with the battle….we want some revenge ….behind the restaurant there was a jetty…it was still raining….we paid again and start battling at 1.00pm in the rain…no sign of enemy still….but at 2.00pm I got a fish slightly bigger than the previous one at kelong….that gave us a little hope…but still…no sign…..2.30 we left the battlefield heading towards KL….so I got 2, shamsir got 1, and asfiya none…so Asfiya needs to break the virginity of his rod at the next battlefield scheduled in November ( he bought the rod n reel on the day itself tho)

On the way back me and asfiya dropped by at hentian rehat seremban for jamak prayers hehe (as if KL is so far haha) and had some coffee n mee rebus…we saw some young chicaz nearby our table and tried to play eyes with them…when they left, their car was just nearby and guess what?? The father was looking at us!! Sighhhhhhh!!!!....

We continue the journey and during the drive, I put on some blasting metal songs which made my journey more enjoyable…asfiya had a nap like nobody’s business luckily no snoring hahha….

So that was the fishing trip for 2007 at the moment….we spent around RM 100 each and bring back no fish ?! hahaha…although we had 3 fishes in total but on the concept of ‘catch & release’ …we pity the  fish tho and we care bout the habitat…we don’t really want the fish unless its nice to eat…we just want to play with them…..cant wait for the next battle….

Thanks for the birthday wishes people!!

Sunday, 10 June 2007..10pm

Just wana record some appreciation to those of my fellow friends who wished Happy Birthday to me on my 29^th birthday, be it via SMS, calls & emails. Thanks for remembering. And also to my colleagues for the surprise cake. My family for the small celebration at home. Thanks a lot!... I was impressed with someone who wished me as early as 5.50 am in the morning.. Well shes always being a nice person..you rock babe.

This year’s birthday was just like any other birthday except for few things. First, I got a hug from a hot Azerbaijan chick congratulating me on my birthday. It made me freezed, startled and don’t know what to do hahhaha. Well, its their culture not ours. But like the malay people says, rezeki la tuh hahhaha.

Secondly, most of the whishes via SMS says  “ Happy Birthday, moga panjang umur & cepat kahwin”… Sigh!! This never happened before ahaks… I know I’m getting older but…no comment.

At 29, life is cool and good. Having a good career, you have achieved your academic level prior to that.  I just need to buy a house. That would make my life complete. That’s what every parents wants from their children. I guess I have fulfilled their wishes except for getting married hahhaha… I know they are worried seeing me still not getting married and showing  no indication at all ahahaha… well what can I say… when makcik2 ask “ ni bila lagi ni? “ , my answer is “ lepas raya la aunty”  everytime the same answer. When frens ask “ bila nak nak kawin?’ My answer “ tentulah tahun nih!” and it goes all the time. cool isnt it? Hahahhah…… but the most interesting thing is that there is this someone thought that im a gay! So I told her, meet me tonight and ill show you whether Im gay or not hahahha. What a crap..

And some thoughts….

Marriage is not an easy thing. Only once. Choose your partner correctly. People thought im choosy. There’s nothing wrong being choosy for the sake of the best for you. No doubt nobody is perfect.  Personal economy has to be resilient in meeting the upcoming challenges. Current generation’s situation is not the same as during our father’s time. My dad, a former government servant also, told me that during his time, basic salary for a fresh graduate working with the government is RM 900. They can afford to buy an imported car which cost them RM 9000. Salary is 10% of car price. They can buy a terrace house at RM 70,000. What happened to nowadays? Starting salary is about RM1,800. Is there any car costing RM18,000? You might get a kancil but without engine and tyres I guess. Terrace house in KL nothing less than RM 300,000. Last time no handphones, no ASTRO, so its true that cost of living nowadays is very competitive.

Economist measure the inflation  rate based on the price of necessity goods like rice, sugar and etc. But they missed out cars and houses which to me should be considered as necessity goods as well, at the same rank as food.

This is the normal phenomena of a developing country turning into a fully developed country. Young people struggling to survive in the economy. The idea is that living alone is cheaper than living for 2 or more. Getting married very late and not to have many children is a threat to our social development which slowly will give an indirect negative impact to the economy from the perspective of population growth. We will soon become like Japan if our vision 2020 being “fully” realized. In Japan, people got married late or not married at all. They will only have 1 child or 2 the most as the cost of living and raising a child is ridiculous. Malaysia has the potential to be like that.  So, moral of the story, if u want to get married, duit kasi cukup la dey tambi ..tarak hutang punya hahahha, before that, calon kasi ada dulu lah! :p

Africa...Im lovin it babeh. :P

Im sure most of us wouldn’t want to go to

Africa

for a holiday. The only thing that would bring us to African countries would be our work. Correct? The only African country that we might reach probably would be

South Africa

.. Same goes to me…never cross my mind to be there

But somehow I was directed to join this Prime Minister’s visit to

Sudan

,

Kenya

&

Namibia

… of course to assist my boss..

Sigh!!........... So I went…

Sudan

is… awww….i want to go back home hahahha… 5 star hotel that we stayed was just like 2 star in

Malaysia.

…. a chicken cost USD 10!! Gila ka mau hidup? Pringles cost 4 times expensive than

Malaysia

But

Kenya

is surprisingly cool. The weather is perfect for me…I thought it would be a hot country but it was nice not hot and not so cold…the development is less than Malaysia of course but acceptable and should be able to survive there… I brought back Kenyan Coffee..they said it’s the best in the world..so, being a coffee lover that would be the first I would buy.

Then we reached

Namibia

…it was fantastic!!! Was like a European country ( according to some ppl) the city is so clean…. but then I found out that it was a camouflage… only the west side of Windhoek is a nice place but the northen and southern part is just wat I expected to be… anyway, the weather is also nice for me…didn’t get any sinus there haha..

but the most memorable thing is that during the business forum in the 3 countries, PM introduced each one of us from MITI, MIDA & MATRADE to the forum before introducing the Ministers who followed him. What an honour for us huhuhhuh..

Finally the last stop was

London

. Finally after 9 years of failing to get there to further my studies due to the economic recession, I stepped my feet in

England

. Although for a transit of one day, but at least got the chance to tour around the city and snap some photos.

Then time to go home after 10 days…arrived in Malaysia and had some jet-lag…got MC some more hahahha…..anyway, such a great experience.

Kasut ku di Curi Orang Part II

I remembered the 1st blog entry was on kasut ku di curi orang. Now the continuation..

As usual every morning i opened the door to go to work and send my sister to school. I realised that the cupboard outside was left opened. Damn!!!! somebody stole our shoes... Lucky enough i kept my working shoes inside the house if not i would be wearing slipper to work... the difference is that last time they stole my unbranded working shoes named XES Appeal or i call it SEX Appeal...

but now? my Larrie shoes, NIKE sandals which i just bought it last December for my holiday trip. What's more? my beloved GOLF SHOES which my dad bought it for me in Japan. Arghhhh...this is cruel...how can i play golf? its expensive to get a pair of good golf shoes especially as a government servant. i gotta do some sound money saving for  it... shit!!

Of coz i feel sad, pissed and dissapointed for this.. but i wont regret for what happened.. I vowed to the fate written by the Almighty... in life, you lose something precious and God replace it with something better.. who knows i can get Miss Bolivia or Miss Venezuela as my girlfriend?  hahahahhahah!

Why cant we just live in a peaceful life? Crimes seemed to be everywhere nowadays? the answer is simple... we live in a world where democracy is mostly practised... Its just the same as in Zaman Jahiliyah where democracy is being practised.. just compare the situation...what kind of crime does zaman jahilyah have and what kind of crime we have now? we even have more than them... why? its because we didnt use Al quran as our guidance to live..we use al quran as a display at home..nothing that we gained after reading quran we dont even understand what God says in the Al quran... think about it... 

Whatever it is, i still lost my shoes!!

Issue: Social Illness VS Religion VS. Culture VS Economy

Issue: Social Illness VS Religion VS. Culture VS Economy

Bismillahirahmanirahim….

Recently I came across an interesting article in one of the local newspaper.. A man wrote it…To make it short, he wrote that he was in a relationship.. the partner was said to be the best choice for him as a candidate to be his wife…soft spoken, polite, good character, decent appearance and just name it, its all there… they planned seriously to get married…one day, the woman came to him with the intention to confess something… he took it lightly but the woman insist..so she did it. She confessed on her previous dark days of history while she was going through her teenage life. She was wild and had heavy social life..she is no more “anak dara”…  The man was shocked and disappointed…since then, he didn’t contact the woman but he said he missed the woman…

Now, the analysis…

First of all, credit should be given to the woman for the guts in confessing it. Not many would be brave enough to do it…she did the right thing before its too late…

It is common nowadays to hear things like pre marital sexual relationship, living together without marriage, free sex and so forth…when it comes to marriage, some men are particular on the virginity of his partner ..that if the man was brought up decently with a good eastern culture practice..if we talk about this nowadays, people define this as “KOLOT” , “this is millennium..everybody is practicing it” ..…if a man raised this issue to a woman…the woman will fire back by saying “ you want the woman or her virginity?? Partly its correct then…but would it be fair for those good man / woman ? of coz not…when you eat a fruit, would you eat a fruit that was partly eaten by somebody else? of coz you want to have  fresh fruits…more or less same implication of concept.. but depends on the culture…. Lets say the man married the woman due to his love, somehow, deep inside his heart would remember the history of the woman and this will remain forever  till the dooms day and till he marries a “bidadari” in heaven..

The point is.. what do we want & expect? Sex is not everything in marriage & relationship…

In Japan, a documentary showed a man’s partner working as a prostitute to earn for living…why? Because of love I guess…

If a man / woman is  a widower / divorcee, it’s a totally different case… the level of acceptance by the man mentioned above is definitely different….because he already knew the history of that woman…I could understand how the man feels..I don’t blame him either for not accepting the woman…Im sure he’s a “teruna”..probably so called “ lelaki melayu terakhir”….

But if a man says that he 's a virgin in this millenium era, who would trust even it's true?

From muslim religion point of view, of coz those kind of things are forbidden… in Al Quran, it was stated that “ Penzina will be match-made with penzina” …and there are some concrete reason why this kind of things are forbidden…..but somehow we can never know our destiny…sometimes a good man will be matched with “bad” woman and vice versa….sometimes the good ones were meant to guide the “bad” ones…something like that…..only God to decide and determine…everybody do mistakes and it is always never too late to regret and ask for forgiveness from the Almighty..

For the economy, it can be a significant mechanism to enhance the economy…free sex is the potential sector in contributing to the population rate where the birth rate will increase and this is in line with government’s effort to increase the population up to 60 million (if im not mistaken) by 2020. However, this is subject to if the couple decided not to throw the new born child in the trash bin, toilet and from the 10^th floor of a condo.. On the other hand, the risk is the spreading of HIV..also a social illness. 

Free sex will also boost up the rubber industry where the usage of condoms and its kind is expected to increase. When the demand for condoms increases, indirect impact, the price of rubber will also increase although not in a big impact as compared to other rubber products like tyres etc..  directly, it will also create more employment opportunities for the local economy and the unemployment rate will decrease..

Conclusion / moral of the story:

You determine what you want.. so many paths out there…its your choice and your life…everything has got its alternative costs…we cant just get  everything we want…there are things that we have to forgone when we get something else…follow your instinct…never regret for what God had given to you either good ones or bad ones because all are just tests for you…the real life is the eternal life…current life is just temporary…you may enjoy it but with limitations I supposed….

Wsalam…

Family Tree...

Hmmmm this year's raya was ok just like the previous years...nothing exciting..but something meaningful came that i got know my family tree. Im sure everybody have their own....so here it goes..

My great grandfather's grandfarther worked as an advisor to the Sultanate of Pattani..He had 4 sons. Originally he was from Arab but not sure which part. His parents and ancestors had settled down in Acheh. He carried 'Syed Al-Sagoff' title. One day, he retired from his job and asked his 4 sons to settle down in Acheh, Kelantan, Terengganu & Pahang. Before the 4 sons left, he made them swear not to use the title Syed al Sagoff for his next generation as he foresee some circumstances if his generation to use the title.

one of the sons came to Pahang and thats how Im here today hahahah...I cant imagine if my name is "Syed Johan Khalidi Al-Sagoff" ...Sigh!!!

but i guess that explain why im a hairy person though hahahha

pepperoni toast...tea time menu

hmm this menu i created while im hungry waiting for buka puasa...it is suitable to serve during tea time with coffee / tea..

Ingredients:

1 french loaf

slices of pepperoni

kraft cheese / mozarella

slices of prickles

parsley

tabassco sauce

Method:

1)cut the french loaf into few slices, (depends on how much u want to eat)

2)put some pepperoni followed by some parsley on the slices of french loaf

3)topped with cheese and a slice of prickles

4) put it into an oven for about 1 minute..wait till the cheese melt and the bread turned brownish

once done, take it out, add 3 drops of tabasco sauce, and put it into your mouth...

happy trying!!  I've yet to try!  huhuhuhu

Royal Malaysian Navy Officer….a chance of a lifetime

30 th June 2006 I received a letter from Angkatan Tentera

Malaysia

calling me for an interview and selection for NAVY Officer which will take place on 18-28 June 2006 at Kem Lapangan Terbang Sg Petani Kedah. Pretty surprising cz when I applied, I was already 28 exceeding by 1 yr to the maximum age to join the service. Maybe its due to the time taken to finish my Masters they would consider that.

I was in dilemma at first because that period I’m supposed to attend a course for my confirmation in my current career. The interest to become NAVY Official bloomed when I did my masters. I heard good stories bout joining the NAVY. All this while, I never had the exposure on career with the military. All in my mind was WAR & WAR. But its more than that actually. It’s the life of an army official actually…. the sea would be the playground ( not relating to me fishing hobby k ) and the battleship would be the home ….the passion to become  a NAVY Official…. and if I die, I would die as a MARTYR!!

My late uncle was a navy official but he died in a road accident when I was 7 yrs old…another one died due to hepatitis…

Back to the issue….my family members were not supportive at all for me to give it a shot for the selection and interview…no doubt that I had to take leave for 10 days…

Mama said “ Perlu ke pergi? Tak payah lah”……. Kakak said ”ahhh jangan nak mengada..takde keje lain ke?” Ayah said  ” buat apa?”

Few friends supported…I was thinking of just go for it….this is the only chance…my age getting older ….i know I have the characteristic to be in the military…my discipline level is high…im strict in some ways but linen in some ways as well…

But  I believe that without the blessing from parents, I’m going nowhere even if i got the job….therefore, I shall just sacrifice it unfortunately…. Pretty sad actually to forgone something that you want….but that’s life ….we cant get whatever we want…. Well God knows whats best for me….

But one day if I have children, I would definitely encourage them to join military as their career…at least one of them shall become an “ADMIRAL” and stand with full of pride on armada KD Mahawangsa

But its still not too late for me…I may join the RMN Reserve Unit while holding to a full time career…

sighhhhhh!!!

the significant of number 8 today

well, the number 8 today..is pretty significant for me...for chinese, they believe it brings money correct me if im wrong..

but as for me today its dunno lah..of coz today is my birthday...my 28th.. and its 08.06.78   my beloved car's plate number 5578....my new hp number has got the number 78 as well. ... naa just coincidence

but im not sure why early in the morning i felt a bit sad n nervous...hmmm watever la... i know im gettin older n older... but im proud for watever i have achieved at this age...it may not be so great to others as i dont have much wealth collected...the only asset i owned is my car and ...but somehow im glad for what i am today...i agree to my friend's speech during her birthday party on 2nd june 06 where she mentioned that shes proud of watever being achieved at 30 which it true by looking at her academic achievement and career wise.

ohh baru tadi my colleagues in Office gave me a surprise cake as early as 8.30?! normally birthday suprise happened during lunch hour or tea time..so this is totally a surprise! they are just so sweet and wonderful friends..thanks ppl for everything! u guys are the greatest friends i ever had for 28 yrs of living... even my childhood friends never do this to me. But what i like most is that the design of the card is superbly brilliant! pictures of sexy babes! hahahhah

ciao for now and thanks friends!!